Saturday, November 19th, 2005 (early in the am)

I'm in Toronto right now. I'm here for a friends birthday...and record shopping. This time I will go Saturday, right when they open at noon, just to get first pick of the records. I'm hoping for a better selection this time. If not, I always have other record shops to try out.

I've been listening to my recording every chance I've gotten since I finished work. I've come to the conclusion that it's just not good enough. I really shouldn't be making any more copies of that set for anyone. I need to come up with something better. Something more solid.

Back to the drawing board.....yet again......

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Personal Need #7 - Perfection

We all seek it. It's not that I'm high maintenance, or picky, or self-absorbed, or anything like that. It's not even that I seek it in every aspect of my life. I just look for it in myself. I have this weird, perhaps even obsessive-compulsive urge to make sure everything I do is done right. If I feel I can do a better job, I obviously didn't try hard enough in the first place. I usually get frustrated if after many tries I still do not get it right. But will stubbornly keep trying...

Say, surfing, for example. I spent the entire time we were out in the water getting pummeled by itty-bitty 5 foot waves. Even after everyone was finished, I kept going out, completely flustered, just so I could catch my first and only wave.

Go hard or go home. Hmmm, funny how this saying can be used in many different contexts and mean so many different things....

:^)