Tuesday, November 15th, 2005 (early in the am)

Everything happens for a reason. People also come into your life for various reasons. It always seems like certain people come into your life at just the right moment, not always, but most of the time.

It's quite convenient to have met Dr. J (breaks dj) and Rooksys (jungle dj) at this point in time, right when I'm in need of some motivation.

As I'm sure you have all gathered, I'm trying to establish myself as a dj while I'm in London and have some connections in the industry. (I have no intention of serving 25 years to life here) I've been working on putting together a website (djwendylaw.com-which will hopefully be up and running before the end of the year) and was in need of an artist that would charge me little or nothing at all. Here's where Dr. J comes in. He's agreed to help me with my website in exchange for use of my computer. In pity for their lack of a sound system, I've also lent them my speakers. Since then, I've been practicing much more and with a larger selection of records. PLUS I have an artist to draw the graphics for my website. Besides their ongoing attempts to shoot down my self esteem with their teasing and witty comments, everything is working out great!

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In fact, everything has been working out these past few years. Usually for the better. I try to let things happen naturally, without any extra influence. I do what I feel is right, when I feel it is right and how I feel it is right. What was meant to be will happen regardless, so I find that meddling with fate is just a huge waste of time.

Personal Need #5 - Freedom and Independence
I need the freedom to do what makes me happy. When I was living with my parents, I had to live by their rules. I didn't have the freedom to live my life. I only had the freedom to live my life as they wanted me to. I don't like feeling as if I'm being governed by anyone. I was born in the year of the dog according to the Chinese Zodiac so in nature I am a stubborn person. What I think is right, will be right in my mind regardless of what people tell me. It's my inner drive to have complete independence.

So why do I have to have people around me all the time? Hmm...I wonder....