Monday, November 7th, 2005

I drove to Toronto and back yesterday to pick up some fresh vinyl in hopes that I'll be able to play at Spotlight again this Wednesday. They have a breaks/jungle night every Wednesday night. I must say that I was quite disappointed with this trip. I listened to almost every breaks record they had in the store and only came up with 4 playable records. Not to mention that only one side of each of those records, in my opinion, would be considered playable. What was I thinking record shopping on a Sunday when everything had already been picked through on Thursday, Friday and Saturday? So however playable I think those records are, they had already been rejected by the majority of djs in the GTA. I should've listened to Ray when he told me not to buy records on a Sunday. Should've, could've, would've. BUT, it wouldn't have been in my nature not to be defiant.

Speaking of which.....

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I was mentioning something about having personal needs in my previous entry. Well, I really should be calling them goals. But if these goals are not achieved, I would lead a very boring and unsastisfactory life. So in my mind, they're necessities. I'll get back to that in a bit.

Although it's made me somewhat of a dissapointment, my defiant nature is what's kept me going, kept life interesting for me. I mean, if everyone acted like robots and did what was expected of them all the time, how boring would life be? I just like to keep things ESPECIALLY interesting for myself and everyone around me. : )

There's no doubt in my mind that I am the black sheep in my family. I haven't accomplished anything that was expected of me from my parents. My brother on the other hand, still lives at home, is finished his degree and is now doing his masters in Pharmacology and Toxicology, and hopes to attend med school in the near future. The poster child. Always gets top grades in his classes. Man, he makes my parents proud. He makes me proud too. So my parents got their brag-worthy child. What would they do with another?

I try my best to live the way I see fit, in happiness and harmony. This brings me back to my personal needs. These are things I need in all aspects of my life.

Personal Need # 1 - Social Interaction
Most of my friends would say I am somewhat of a social butterfly. Fluttering around from group to group, hanging out with different people all the time. I consider it time occupation. While most people enjoy 'alone time', I on the other hand do not. I have the need to be surrounded by people most of the time. I enjoy having company around no matter what I'm doing.

I can't really explain why I feel the need to be around people so much. I just know that this is part of who I am. Perhaps there's a deeper meaning as to why I am this way but I haven't really had the time 'to myself' to figure it out...... : )